I miss you , but there is no one I can share my problems with , i wanna hold you, hug you, kiss you so badly, but i try not to think of it , it;s slowly creeping onto me all the time though, that unbearable sensation. pls come back soon! i cannot take it anymore!

Missing is an understatement.
thats less than 10 lines for this week.
Very unbearable,
but we will pull it through tgt,
because we're putting in our utmost effort.:D
But baby I miss you so much,
when its late at night I can only allow my tears to fall silently on my pillow,
while memories continue spining in my mind.
How are you baby?
tired?
I'm tired too...

it's so painful and tiring. really, to be pulled down what people think and expect from me is killing me bit by bit. Sometimes i really wonder have i been hiding from the truth all this while. I know i did, i know i'm always a troubled kid but i choose to be ignorant.Now come the consequences, my expection of others, my expectations of myself, others expectations of me.I feel like letting my tears flow..into the deep blue sea where only the fish can feel my tears. Slowly, one day when i have no tears left, i'll be so tired, carried off by the waves into the deep blue ocean into the horizon where i find my sanctuary, the place i belong.

If I should go,
If I were to get close to you
What would you say?
I don't have the courage
If you were to go,
If you were to leave,
How should I let go?
It keeps hanging in my mind.

I know I am a fool, watching you from a distance
Maybe I am worried that you'll turn my feeling away
and so making us strangers again
Just like a fool,I can't even say I love you because
We're afraid the wait that come upon us
or the pain after we meet.

If you to come, to come near me.
What would I do, I really don't know.

Because I'm a fool, even though looking at you is all I can do
Maybe I am worried that you'll turn my feeling away
and so making us strangers again
Just like a fool,I can't even say I love you because
We're afraid the wait that come upon us
or the pain that falls after we meet.

I wonder what are you doing now.

It hurts so badly to see her in pain. Even if i don't know her. Her courage, her boldness, her unwillingness to let go of the past. And I understand the difficulty of doing so, really, sincerely do. Sometimes i feel as though my heart stop beating, for her, for him, for me. For my selfishness, for my ignorance thoroughout the months. How I enjoyed the moments so much when i know someone's hurting, how i know my willingness to open up a barrier, a gate that will inevitably hit another person. I really regret it, really regret opening up again but yet i know deep down i really crave for this concern. Once again, i fell for this temptation, this temptation which will make me a clown again, which may bring out my cowardness once again. I know you still rmb the pain, the story behind us, but you pretend not to.Should i be happy or sad?I dun really know. Should i open up again?Should i just be ignorant for once again?Should i just go ahead and bang myself against the wall this time round? i don't know.

i miss everyone right now!!!
from 203 to 2808 to ocip.
my heart aches. really painful. pretty depress nowadays even though i know there are so many frens around me that i can depend on, but it's more than that.
ALways find it hard to talk about my worries and problems to people. It always seem like my problems are nothing to other people, but it meant alot to me.But i also understand that everyone has their fair share of problems not only me, i really dunno how i feel now. My difficulties with identifying my own feelings is affecting me so badly. Toilet has always been my sanctuarym the PLACE i can depend on:):)

all back to square one.

Readers may find this a lil depressing.

Irys
AJC 2808
StAJeWorks
JLC
Ocip Team thailand 2008

YOU
HAPPINESS, i know it's cliche, watever

:D

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