.Sunday, December 28, 2008 ' 9:48 AM
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You'll never understand how i feel, do you ?
I guess you'll never know, and it's not your fault, it's mine. bcoz i'll never have the courage to tell you my worries, my regrets.
It's all about feeling inferior, yup, that's how i feel when i was around you, inferior was the only thing i noticed. I noticed how much you were blooming like a flower while i was there withering.
One thing is you're so nice,too nice and i know you everyone tells you that, but to me, you're so much better than what i can express verbally. I know you dote on everyone you know but i just want to believe that it's me alone.
you'll never know how scared i was when you were abt to blast out your answer. i was so scared i ran away, i dun wanna know abt the other one, the other part of your life.
There's so many regrets, one of them was opening up another wound, another wound where i know it'll make me even more confused than ever, but it's not your fault, it's mine, it's my foolishness that i think that everything will still be the same. the truth is, it wont and i did not get that fact right until now.
i'm still clinging on and i despise myself for it, just like how i dislike others who will never let go even though everything was over. Now, it's time to scoff at myself, IRIS-The-Great who is actually the best example of the cowards who only cling onto the past!
As much as the sun that rises above you,
I'll keep you safe as much as you've waited for me, with this glaring heart,
All the dreams I've prayed for,
They're going towards you with my sincere scent,
More than the air I breathe. -DBSK-
I know that it may never end up the way i want it to, but trust me, regardless of what happen, i'll keep you safe and happy, i dun wanna be a burden. i just wanna hear your laughter and keep you moving on :)
