.Monday, June 08, 2009 ' 5:45 AM
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It hurts so badly to see her in pain. Even if i don't know her. Her courage, her boldness, her unwillingness to let go of the past. And I understand the difficulty of doing so, really, sincerely do. Sometimes i feel as though my heart stop beating, for her, for him, for me. For my selfishness, for my ignorance thoroughout the months. How I enjoyed the moments so much when i know someone's hurting, how i know my willingness to open up a barrier, a gate that will inevitably hit another person. I really regret it, really regret opening up again but yet i know deep down i really crave for this concern. Once again, i fell for this temptation, this temptation which will make me a clown again, which may bring out my cowardness once again. I know you still rmb the pain, the story behind us, but you pretend not to.Should i be happy or sad?I dun really know. Should i open up again?Should i just be ignorant for once again?Should i just go ahead and bang myself against the wall this time round? i don't know.
