~it's my life~

2010-10-15T05:50:00.001-07:00

I miss you , but there is no one I can share my problems with , i wanna hold you, hug you, kiss you so badly, but i try not to think of it , it;s slowly creeping onto me all the time though, that unbearable sensation. pls come back soon! i cannot take it anymore!

2010-08-12T11:11:00.000-07:00

Missing is an understatement.
thats less than 10 lines for this week.
Very unbearable,
but we will pull it through tgt,
because we're putting in our utmost effort.:D
But baby I miss you so much,
when its late at night I can only allow my tears to fall silently on my pillow,
while memories continue spining in my mind.
How are you baby?
tired?
I'm tired too...

2009-07-09T07:20:00.000-07:00

it's so painful and tiring. really, to be pulled down what people think and expect from me is killing me bit by bit. Sometimes i really wonder have i been hiding from the truth all this while. I know i did, i know i'm always a troubled kid but i choose to be ignorant.Now come the consequences, my expection of others, my expectations of myself, others expectations of me.I feel like letting my tears flow..into the deep blue sea where only the fish can feel my tears. Slowly, one day when i have no tears left, i'll be so tired, carried off by the waves into the deep blue ocean into the horizon where i find my sanctuary, the place i belong.

2009-06-09T02:12:00.000-07:00

If I should go,
If I were to get close to you
What would you say?
I don't have the courage
If you were to go,
If you were to leave,
How should I let go?
It keeps hanging in my mind.

I know I am a fool, watching you from a distance
Maybe I am worried that you'll turn my feeling away
and so making us strangers again
Just like a fool,I can't even say I love you because
We're afraid the wait that come upon us
or the pain after we meet.

If you to come, to come near me.
What would I do, I really don't know.

Because I'm a fool, even though looking at you is all I can do
Maybe I am worried that you'll turn my feeling away
and so making us strangers again
Just like a fool,I can't even say I love you because
We're afraid the wait that come upon us
or the pain that falls after we meet.

2009-06-09T00:46:00.001-07:00

I wonder what are you doing now.

2009-06-08T05:45:00.000-07:00

It hurts so badly to see her in pain. Even if i don't know her. Her courage, her boldness, her unwillingness to let go of the past. And I understand the difficulty of doing so, really, sincerely do. Sometimes i feel as though my heart stop beating, for her, for him, for me. For my selfishness, for my ignorance thoroughout the months. How I enjoyed the moments so much when i know someone's hurting, how i know my willingness to open up a barrier, a gate that will inevitably hit another person. I really regret it, really regret opening up again but yet i know deep down i really crave for this concern. Once again, i fell for this temptation, this temptation which will make me a clown again, which may bring out my cowardness once again. I know you still rmb the pain, the story behind us, but you pretend not to.Should i be happy or sad?I dun really know. Should i open up again?Should i just be ignorant for once again?Should i just go ahead and bang myself against the wall this time round? i don't know.

2009-05-29T17:35:00.000-07:00

i miss everyone right now!!!
from 203 to 2808 to ocip.
my heart aches. really painful. pretty depress nowadays even though i know there are so many frens around me that i can depend on, but it's more than that.
ALways find it hard to talk about my worries and problems to people. It always seem like my problems are nothing to other people, but it meant alot to me.But i also understand that everyone has their fair share of problems not only me, i really dunno how i feel now. My difficulties with identifying my own feelings is affecting me so badly. Toilet has always been my sanctuarym the PLACE i can depend on:):)

2009-01-02T08:11:00.001-08:00

all back to square one.

2008-12-29T06:22:00.000-08:00

Was in school with wen hang today mugging, actually it was more of a spilling out session with each other. We talked abt almost everything under the sun , our dreams, our life.

it's how uncanny both of us can be so similar, although hang is a really hot girl.

Dreams - to just put everything behind and not care abt what life has to offer us in singapore. Move on , move on with life overseas so that we can benefit people who need us to. We really ponder what are we living for in singapore, for family, for studies? Yes, you say unrealistic to just abandon everything but we think Service. The passion to serve others in another area.

Life - who knew we could openly talk abt our past. Past, to us, is something we desperately try to hide. And we admit that we're clowns, clowns that make people happy, clowns that act tough despite all the insecurities that's running beneath us.But hang hang, we must continue to act tough, because there's so many people we have to care for. there's so many people whom we need to be strong for. It's for them, it's for us, we must always know our value, our aims in life, this way, we'll never be blinded by the unhappiness that never fail to appear in front of us :)

It was great, hang hang, talking to you today was great, it really make me realise how much i should reflect and also how much i cherish you and lian lian as a friend, as a family member. I truely love the times spent with you and lian during training week, OCIP sobmoei and even back here. I know you need support and I'll always be here for you. Do remember, we're strong girls!!!

2008-12-28T09:48:00.000-08:00

You'll never understand how i feel, do you ?
I guess you'll never know, and it's not your fault, it's mine. bcoz i'll never have the courage to tell you my worries, my regrets.
It's all about feeling inferior, yup, that's how i feel when i was around you, inferior was the only thing i noticed. I noticed how much you were blooming like a flower while i was there withering.

One thing is you're so nice,too nice and i know you everyone tells you that, but to me, you're so much better than what i can express verbally. I know you dote on everyone you know but i just want to believe that it's me alone.

you'll never know how scared i was when you were abt to blast out your answer. i was so scared i ran away, i dun wanna know abt the other one, the other part of your life.

There's so many regrets, one of them was opening up another wound, another wound where i know it'll make me even more confused than ever, but it's not your fault, it's mine, it's my foolishness that i think that everything will still be the same. the truth is, it wont and i did not get that fact right until now.

i'm still clinging on and i despise myself for it, just like how i dislike others who will never let go even though everything was over. Now, it's time to scoff at myself, IRIS-The-Great who is actually the best example of the cowards who only cling onto the past!

As much as the sun that rises above you,
I'll keep you safe as much as you've waited for me, with this glaring heart,
All the dreams I've prayed for,
They're going towards you with my sincere scent,
More than the air I breathe. -DBSK-

I know that it may never end up the way i want it to, but trust me, regardless of what happen, i'll keep you safe and happy, i dun wanna be a burden. i just wanna hear your laughter and keep you moving on :)

2008-12-28T09:43:00.000-08:00

omg! it's been like 10 frigging months since i've updated!
life in AJ has been , well, gd and bad.
thank you to 2808, the class which i grow to love, esp the 6 of us.
thank you JLC for accompanying me throughout the days
thank you 203 peeps for loving me like you all did
thank you OCIP, hang and lian for the love you girls showered me!!
thank you everyone, for making me the person i am today, i grew up alot, really , alot , taking up things i nv would have done in the past. so thank you all. i'm really bad at expressing myself so i hope you guys cam feel it:)

2008-03-13T20:40:00.000-07:00

If you could just turn back.

2008-03-04T04:12:00.000-08:00

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!

In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.
You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts.

At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.
You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding

When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's" Your Personality Type?

You Are A Social Butterfly

You love your friends so much...
You're motto is "the more, the merrier"!
Making sure everyone's included is your mission
And you always prefer a group of ten to a group of two

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindoffriendareyouquiz/">What Kind of Friend Are You?

You Will Be a Cool Parent

You seem to naturally know a lot about parenting, and you know what kids need.
You can tell when it's time to let kids off the hook, and when it's time to lay down the law.
While your parenting is modern and hip, it's not over the top.
You know that there's nothing cool about a parent who acts like a teenager... or a drill sergeant!

Would'>http://www.blogthings.com/wouldyoubeacoolparentquiz/">Would You Be a Cool Parent?

You Are As Cool As They Come

Rational and relaxed, no one could accuse you of being dramatic.
You roll with the punches, and nothing ever gets you too worked up.
You are able to maintain perspective and see the big picture.

And even if you're emotional inside, you don't let it show.
You're great at keeping it together, and you're rewarded for that.
People see you as an ideal friend, employee, and partner.

Are'>http://www.blogthings.com/areyouadramaqueenquiz/">Are You a Drama Queen (or King)?

2008-03-01T20:32:00.000-08:00

From my angel:

One day, you asked me whose life was more important
yours or mine?
i said mine.
and you walked away angrily
not knowing that your life is mine.

i know it's kinda random quote,but i love it!thanks uma!

2008-02-18T04:29:00.000-08:00

today ,18th of feb, is the last day of pae:(.
after today, i may not be able to see the friends i made for the past 1 1/2 mth.
from orientation to og, from og to class 27/08.
i made a lot of friends,i wish those who are not staying at AJ all the best!
do rmb me! the bio rep!

all the girls of 27 say "27!27!"
all the boys of 27 say "27!27!"

omg~~i'm so gonna miss you guys! from the little discussions to pon lessons and our dislike for certain tchers!

i hope that we can still remain as bonded and keep the friendship gg!i love you guys!

moving on to the next topic, today i watched a video abt taboo marriage.

child marriage
marriage with multiple partners
same sex marriage

after watching this vide, it really force me to reconsider what is the real meaning of a true blissful marriage. is it only true love that matters?or is it the need to continue the tradition that people get married for?or is it for the security of a shelther above one and the sufficient money to live?what will motivate you to sign the papers and say "i do"??

i rmbed "marriage" is my oral topic in sec 2 , and i was totally dumbfounded when ms meyer blasted the question!

anyway, my take for marriage is that it has to be consisted of

love
trust
respect
a shelter
money

ya~that's all that i can think of, right now though, because i believe that as time pass by,my thoughts will mature and so will my motivation for other things in life.

so till then, tata~~

2008-02-14T23:09:00.000-08:00

i was flippling through my inbox where i realised this email from may 6A'03
i rmbed i was so reluctant to leave cckps but now i'm more reluctant to leave BP.

Iris:Your name of Iris has given you an idealistic nature with a desire to help others. Your initiative often causes you to be the first to act when you see a need. Since you are impressionable and receptive, you feel the misfortunes of others very keenly. However, this name makes it awkward for you to express your deeper thoughts and feelings with finesse and diplomacy to the extent that your candid, sometimes blunt, manner of speaking creates misunderstandings with others. Being somewhat self-centred, you learn through your own experiences, as you rarely take advice from others. Yet, you are sensitive and very easily hurt and offended. You long for praise and appreciation for your efforts, but others find it difficult to understand you.

just a little poem.
The times we had, were always cool
Whether old, or whether new...
You took away all my fears
And took away, all my tears.
You left a trail of memories,
that had passed by, like a breeze.
Sometimes I wonder, why the rain?
Why the leaving, why the pain?
Why the happy, why the sad?
Why the good why the bad?
Now, I still don't realise why we part...
But still, you will always be in my heart!
You, my friend, will always be...
In my life, right in me!

2008-02-06T00:19:00.000-08:00

money gang 4T1'o7

outside AJC..eew.

it's CNY eve~~~!!!
yay~!i'll be flying to taiwan tmr for a CNY holiday! so cya peeps!had CNY celebration in school so here are some of the photos taken, some scandals too~~~muahahaha~~

back home in my room.
27/08 girls with mr seet(that old man in front)
the girls of 27/08

omg. cherlene~~my camera lens are cracking!
luqman and the amkss girl..muahaha~~
crazy hui4 ying3

kaylee and this guy from her class...muahaha~

2008-02-01T20:16:00.000-08:00

hey hey~~~ i'm back
ohwells, i got back my o's results, kinda expected so when i got back my results i was in fact relieved and happy that i can still stay in AJC.

but sheesh, i really hate myself.
looking at those around me crying and sobbing but i knowing can't do much to help them. it really suck.sometimes i wonder what's in my brain. i can tell you the answer is nothing. i can't motivate people nor make them feel better.all i can do is to give them a hug. that's all.

it sucks.REALLY.
it sucks to see people sad but not being able to help.
it sucks to know i can't make ppl happy.

2008-01-07T03:10:00.000-08:00

错过了就永远来不及,
i'm really scared. scared.scared.

2008-01-05T23:27:00.000-08:00

eh eh eh ... i din put ZACH's name down!
hahahahaah ... oh ... i forgot about you la!! paiseh paiseh ..but i make up by commenting at your blog le!
anyway,ok la .. SOMEONE just told mi 我没良心, lol, paiseh la... who tell you to always hide among the boys *oops* i think it's your height la ... so i din recall you! so to make up , i shall dedicate this post to you can ????!!!
thank you ZACH!!!! for making my day v.v.v. cold.
eh... i know you're the suan-ing king, but my skills are far better lor.

eh.thanks for organising the sentosa trip! it's very fun! as usual la, with the SUPER FUN iris around.

and i rmb-ed you telling me in sec 2 that you dunno how to swim right ?? i was like super shock la!! ZACH doesn't know how to swim!! eh..like tt how??next time if your gf drown then you can't swim then how to save her???

now that you got nth to do , go learn swimming la!!

eh.. don't depress le. 23 more days only!

ZACH IS A SUPER SUPER TROUBLED KID!
HE NEEDS HELP WITH HIS ABUNDANCE OF TIME!!! AHAHAAH...
eh ...see zach, i'm endorsing you!
so don't say 我没良心！！！

2007-12-30T22:19:00.000-08:00

2007 is coming to an end!!
and i am leaving BP, my dearest sec sch and friends.
i hope that 2008 will be a more fruitful year and that everyone will be happier and healthy, i know it sound cliche.

我真的不想放弃这四年来的回忆，因为有你们，我的生活才变得更美丽，更精彩。但是生活还得过，四年就这样悄悄过去了，我们就抱着这四年的回忆向前看吧！期待一个更光辉的一天。恩慧再次感谢每个陪我一路走来的朋友，我爱你们！！

ok, it's gonna be quite a long post.
first i wanna thanks ppl from 203 and 103.

thanks kaylee for accompanying me when we're in 103 and 203, thanks for sleeping with me (sounds wrong) when lessons got so boring that we couldn't tahan. plus making our gathering more exciting with the rumors of you and HIM!

thanks halimah for being my recess buddy! and i rmb i fell in love with malay food because of you. and i rmb the days we stayed back just to talk!!i rmb helping you with your chinese hmk and i really appreciate you around!even when i speak chinese, you'll still understand! and i rmb the time we were looking for your slippers in pasir ris beach!

thanks caijun for making me laugh when i feel down and caring for me when i got injured during p.e lessons! and i rmb you treat me to yoshinoya (??) and followed mi out to shop. well, i know i always 跟你唱反调, but i really treasure you. you're really a funny person , ya know?

thank you to xinyi who never fail to make my day as cold as ever in this hot and humid singapore. 冰山美人！！and thanks for helping me out during sec 2 cheering comp!

thanks xiuming for befriending me during the first day of school in sec 1 ! although i sometimes become quite impatient with you but i really enjoy the time we spent doing loads of project tgt.

thanks hanif for all the help, for cheering comp, for chalet, for small gatherings, for getting into trouble! and of course the samurai thing and ET thing we use to play during sec2! i rmb lining at the back before assembly in the morning just to crap with you, halimah and kaylee!

thank you mormor,emily,dolly,jiaying,ruiyan,gekpeng for all the laughter. to mor, thanks for your help for this year chalet!oh emily!i rmb you were so depressed during sec 2, but you got back into you bubbly self. thanks for staying back to fool around with me! to dolly and jiaying for entertaining us by playing netball downstairs while we catch 'live' entertainment from our class.thanks ruiyan for helping out for all class events when you can! and thankyou gekpeng for being my exam buddy..muahahaha...rmb teaching you all the last minute science stuff before exams!

thanks sufyan for helping me out when i need to handle with halah stuff and of course, buying food for all sort of class event!

to derek,lendl,raymond,anliang,norman,yikai,nigel,luqman,ghanyean,hariz,for making lessons more entertaining! thanks for taking so much care for 203 girls, we really appreciate the help you guys offered to help us carry our stuff and lightening our load.and the humor you guys brought around was great, haha, at least i learnt to look at things from a guy's perspective.

thanks to the other coconutz who made all our lifes in 203 livelier(??) and more happening! 203 is a great year, one of my highlights in sec sch life and i really enjoy all coconutz presense!

thank you to miss alice lim who taught us important life lessons and treating us just like her own kids. i rmb the time when we got so naughty that she got angry, we're really sorry but i know you still love us like you always do. and i really miss the childish side of you during chalet!!

thank you to joan for making studying seem more important!!!haha!!no la, thanks for accompanying me to study in the library and shopping! you're one special person i can relate fashion to!

thanks cherlene for sharing oguri shun with me!!! haha, although he's mine now!haha, you're really cute and i really enjoy the time spent with money gang.

thank you vivien for helping me out with stuff i dunno and the laughter we had during chinese lessons!! but we really have different taste so haha, we won't fall for the same guy!

i think that's the long and short of the people whom i'm really grateful to! you guys are really great!hope that you guys continue to live life to the fullest!

happy new year!!!! i'm going countdown later!!!

2007-12-18T05:46:00.000-08:00

LX, 110m hurdler champion in 2004 athens olympics.

oh it's such a looooong time since i blogged. and my blog is officially dead, ok?
anyway, it's been quite sometime that i got back to singapore. 203 chalet was enjoyable! sometimes i realise how simplicity can be fun, esp. watching people fall asleep. afterwhich i went to tenor gathering and man, it was so cool. i mean we're still as close as ever and yun hao was like saying that he practically "watch us grow up", i know, i know, i find it weird too. haha . but i was glad that SHE wasn't invited at all. i rlly can't imagine how cold the atmosphere would be. anyway,i realise that shao ning is not so weird afterall! he's quite fun to talk to, i mean like when we're talking about ghost and super natural stuff,he'll always have a scientific explanation to our story. and he'll always be there to caculate the bill and make sure the amount is right!!lmao.anyway, after coming back from shanghai, i realise i'm in love with
LIU XIANG 刘翔！！！
here's some of his photos!

~~kawaii~~aiyo, i don't think any of you know him because we were sec 1 pupils when he became super famous!and he's still famous..

cum'on, sportsman will always look good in anything, ohwells, MOST of them do.

anyway, he's around 1.9m tall.

~~~oh~~~broke the world record at age 23. timing:12.88s

anyway, so sad right? didn't get to see him in SHANGHAI, so i told my dad that i wanna go beijing in summer so that i can see him race, but someone told me that it's dumb, because his race will be over in less than 13s...

AH~~~!!!13s 13s 13s.

nvm lor, i shall nv get to meet him, ok?? fine??

anyway, my trip to china was an enriching one.

went to shanghai, su zhou, wu xi, nan jing and hang zhou.

somehow it made me realise my roots and there's this salesperson who was so surprised that singaporeans consist of chinese.

gosh~~! he was like "你们是新加坡人？？！”*with the super freaked out face"

then i was like "yeah, 我们是新加坡人”*duh~*

then he asked "为什么你们和我的皮肤一样，也是黄种人？”

then i started laughing...

anyway, i'm did not really buy a lot of stuff because the schedule was pretty hectic. so i'm so sorry JLC cab only get you all food stuff but rest assured, i'll be flying off during CNY to macau, guangzhou and bangkok so i guess i'll be skipping school. anyway i hope i can get you all something by then!

till then, tata!

2007-11-27T19:53:00.000-08:00

OHH~~~~!!
i'll be flying off today. and i hate packing my luggage.
hate it hate it hate it.
i'm a veri disorganised person which means that packing is def a big headache to me. on top of that, my mom will take out my clothings again and start packing again. and it's totally annoying.also, i would have to think of what i'm gonna wear for those freaking 7 days lor!

anyway, i hope my trip will be fun and enjoyable.

2007-11-25T20:14:00.000-08:00

sometimes i rlly hate myself
因为自己的不勇敢，我就这样偷偷摸摸，好像一个做了错事却不敢承认的坏小孩。

没办法，就让它这样吧。。

Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish。

it's my choice isn't it?

2007-11-25T04:41:00.000-08:00

another truth:he plays the piano and keyboard.

2007-11-23T05:12:00.000-08:00

hey, here i am again.
i've spent like two whole days at home ok????
and it's such a accomplishment la!

anyways, i've been pondering alot.
i wish singapore's weather is like 20 degrees or below la.
tt way,i'll be able to layer all my clothings without perspiring.anyway, i'm off to shanghai on wed the 28 or should i say thurs the 29? i dunno! it's like a midnight flight so yea i'll be off on wed night.i'm like flying off and coming back on the same day as my dear kaylee la!EEEE, so sad our flight timing is like five hours later on both days, when i'm on the plane,she'll be still busy getting ready at changi airport and when she touch down on the 5th, i'll be like still on the plane! but it's like super QIAO.anyway,don't miss me guys, i'll be back on 5th dec and there i go, from changi airport straight to the downtowneast chalet!afterwhich i'll have a tenor outing on like 8th...
oh god! i'm so damn occupied!nvm, don't miss guys, i'll think of you on the plane! LOL.

to jlc and my close friends:i'll get you all the hip and unique pieces i can find in shanghai ok?!
and to xy: i'll get you sand from shanghai beach.

2007-11-21T06:00:00.000-08:00

hey, 2nd post today.
suddenly , i have the urge to write, or rather type.
i feel so lonely now,i dunno why, like an empty and hollow feeling searing through my heart.

oh wells. maybe it's because of HIM. i dunno, i hate it. he's totally gorgeous ok?

sometimes i just daydream ya know? hoping i can be some tai tai at the age of 16 and later a great fashion designer by the age of 17. I KNOW! it's so impossible but i really hope to be a jetsetter with the special him and equipped with a brain of IQ200.
whatever.
i told you it's daydreaming!
okok. i hope he'll be a mixed. a mixed .a mixed.

very random post but i want a mixed!

2007-11-20T20:35:00.000-08:00

hey, i'm back!
ytd was a pretty terrifying day for me.
i can't believe i'm choosing my JC right now you know? it's like i just came into bpghs ytd. right, 4 yrs just passed like that, simple and fast.
here's my reflection for the 4 years i'd spent in bpghs
sec 1: i can't rmb much though. i knew i sat beside pauline and later kaylee..din really like kaylee at first i think. i'm also not very sure. but i rmb sitting beside hariz for home econ and,man he was hilarious. not like the hanif and izni type of humor but it's just his actions tt make me laugh out.anyway, come to think of it, i'm really really childish when i was in sec 1. who isnt?

sec 2: grew a tiny winy bit more mature. i learn to take care of my class after being voted the head of functions. and i really enjoy my post and my sec 2 moments. the class spirit was there and i rmb the times i just stayed back in sch to watch the neballers play just from the windows.anyway i rmb the last time we had PE. it was amazing,they boys were great. they played on even though it was like 18 girls vs 6 boys. i think sec 2's is the highlight of my secondary life. afterwhich, i had to move on.

sec3: i joined class 3T1 as a former hardballer and later one nanoer. but sad to say though, i din really enjoy my time in this class. i can no longer feel the class spirit i used to feel in 203. it's like it's gone from my life, totally ripped off. and i spent like the first few months feeling depressed because i really miss my class. then i learnt to accept.to accept the fact that nothing will be like the past where everyone loves one another. it's different already. then i had JLC and the 170. love them to death. they're one of the reason why i enjoy sch.

sec4: sec 4 was a fulfilling year. money gang was formed, and i still adore my JLC. then i realise how blind was i. there's so many things happening around me and i was actually oblivious to them. i realised how pretentious people were.distorted facts, stupid accusations, and it was like everyone is wearing a mask.i found out so many NATOs in this class NO ACTION TALK ONLY.always raising my hopes and later backing out. not honouring your words.but i would also like to thank all these NATOs , because of you all i learn to cherish JLC better and the comfort they provide me. at least they don't give me empty promises. anyways i had fun with JLC and i truely hope that we will continue to embrace each other like we always do.

till then tata.

2007-11-20T01:19:00.000-08:00

ten things i plan to accomplish this holiday.

shop
work
enjoy my holiday in shanghai
chalet
relax
sleep
watch lotsa lotsa movies
catch up my friends
get myself into fashion and trends again
see HIM?

task no. 10 is like veri impossible but who cares? i'll be at orchard road checking out . whatever.lol

2007-11-20T00:30:00.000-08:00

hey hey. i'm back after a year.O.o
just realised i've been gone for such such a loooooooong time.
2007 has been a really enriching year.
and it'll be over in less than a mth.
i'm thrilled.
i miss JLC.
the money gang.
ytd was prom but i din go.
was at The line shangri-la chilling out.

these are some of the photos only. can't be bothered to upload all.

iris and i dunno what's his name.

anyways. went to watch bratz afterwards. very typical teenage girls type of movie. ohwells, i love yasmine and tt deaf guy.he's sooo cute.imagine your boyfriend not able to hear your voice but instead feel and understand what you're trying to convey. it'll be so much more meaningful then just saying "i love you".

16.11.2007
went over to roxane house for a bbq and i prepared the food. all by myself okay?!

lol.roxane moved over to yishun and the estate was like totally amazing. like a small american town, a mixed of condo facilities and terrace housing. anyways had a great chat with fanghui,roxane,hui zhen,ziwei, caijun,xinyi,joan,vivien and kaylee who went of early.

it was hilarious when a little boy riding a bike over and delibrately falling in front of roxane. ok fine, roxane's available , boys, do grab her. she's sweet as honey and cute as button. lol.officially company endorsing our new product:roxane.

anyways the bbq pit is like so cool! just place your food over the gas pit and ta-da your food is cooked in no time. this is so mch better than the charcoal ones, where you'll get yourself all smelly and sweaty and yet the charcoal refuse to burn.

o's are officially over and right now, i'm rotting at home.sometimes i start crying because i'm bored to tears. oh god. i feel so lonely la and i start thinking of my eyecandy whom only kaylee and joan and deborah have seen before. he's mysterious ok? although joan says he lives in his own world.anyway, he's a mixed. i totally attracted to mixed. ok, i know i sound like a horrible lecher but i'm not la.but too bad. there's absolute no chance of seeing him again. damn it. and i never spoke to him before. argh. i should have just committ suicide la.

well, let's switch topic, if not i'll start thinking of him again.

i asked this question around for a lot of times before.

girls out there, if i were to give you a chance to choose a guy who's music talented or sports incline, who will you choose?

well. my answer is def. music. if he can sing it'll be like super romantic and cute la. and you won't even want to sleep when you're tgt.

anyway,it's just a random thought.

2006-11-16T04:17:00.000-08:00

SGH work attachment is fun!!!

2006-11-16T04:14:00.000-08:00

iris --
[noun]:

A person who has the ability to be invisible

'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

RUBBISH

2006-11-04T00:26:00.000-08:00

thurs went to roxane's condo for BBQ and bowling party!!!
woots~ it's one of my happiest holiday up till now!!
we haf quite a lot of difficulty starting fire, kept burning the poor plastic fork! AHH~ but i found out tt i have a flair in starting fire, maybe i shld go to italy to help ppl start fire for baking pizzas, the thought of going to europe pratically makes mi DROOL~ especially the thought of getting a chance to even touch PRINCE WILLIAM's wax figure will make me go CRAZY!

ok back to my topic, yea, after starting the fire, we took turns to cook, other than mi, who is always trying to start the fire..haha... fanghui and kaylee are mad over CHEESE hotdog, snatching over them like there's no tmr... then we had water fight!!! i took a 1.5L coke bottle and tried to fill it up, but bcoz the basin was really small and the five of them tried to stop mi from doing so...i couldn't do so.. so i ran one entire round to another bbq pit and filled it up and ran back to ours...haha...and another water fight begin!!

then i realised we were rather early, we cleared everything up by 8pm and started playing some silly games and started some girls talk, then we went to the bowling alley at 9pm, there's these 3 boys fooling arnd there, so i got so fed-up and walk towards them and said "can you juz move out, we don't think that you are veri considerate" then they pretend not to hear us and one of them said "HUH?" den i shot him back " CAN YOU JUST MOVE OUT?! YOU'RE VERI DISTURBING!!!" and they went away...hahas...this is wat happen when you misbehave, den we had lots of fun bowling, omg~ caijjun was hilarious mans, she lifted the ball up like it was as light as a feather...hahas..laugh until my stomach pain...

den time to go home liao, my father sent XY KL and CJ to Lot 1 , it was veri windy bcoz we're sitting behind the lorry (the part where goods are supposed to be placed),when i got home, i realised i am really really really STINK... OMG ~ as if i din bath for a few days!!! i guessed i perspired too much...hehes... i have been rotting at home this few days and i really look forward to the SGH attachment... WOOTS~

2006-11-04T00:20:00.000-08:00

黑色幽默词曲:周杰伦编曲:洪钟尧
难过是因为闷了很久
是因为想了太多
是心理起了作用
你说苦笑常常陪着你
在一起有点勉强
该不该现在休了我
不想太多我想一定是我听错弄错搞错
拜托我想是你的脑袋有问题
随便说说
其实我早已经猜透看透不想多说
只是我怕眼泪撑不住
不懂你的黑色幽默
想通却又再考倒我
说散你想很久了吧
我不想拆穿你
当作是你开的玩笑
想通却又再考倒我
说散你想很久了吧
败给你的黑色幽默
我的认真败给黑色幽默
one of my fav. songs, it got such a piece of meaningful lyrics...hope ya enjoy!

2006-10-21T21:32:00.000-07:00

life's been really boring nowadays, went to kbox with cj and xy and we got the biggest rm!!! AHH~!! it's so damn shiok!!!had a really great time with them mans... then the next few days are rather boring... i want to go to bugis or orchard to SHOP SHOP and SHOP!!!! i wish i was born into a rich rich rich family and i do not have to worry whether i have enough $$ to spend. but it's a dream isn't it ? we should be contended with what we have right now.but it's juz impossible, everyone yearn for the best,wants the best, rarely there's someone who's able to be good enough to handle things without concerning abt their pride. everyone has pride. that's true. but ppl nowadays are too obsessed with pride, so much so that, simple things such as admitting their mistakes are just as difficult.

ok. i know. it's boring talking abt this topic. it's just a random thought i came up with.

i have lots of plan for this holidays, i wanna

work
read more
go on a vacation
enjoy the SGH attachment
slack
kbox
shop
ice skate (without bruising myself)
bowling
swimming

these 10 events are enough to kill me, so i'm gonna plan my time and of course $$$$$ properly.

suddenly i feel like being a fashion designer. but i'm not really pro at drawing models and clothings but i receive some praises. hehe. i'm gonna take up classes and improve my skills this holiday. HOPEFULLY.

2006-10-17T07:07:00.000-07:00

yoyoyo !!! it's back to me again!! EOYs are over!!! everything is over !!currently scared of 'o' levels chinese man, it's giving mi goose pimples...saw pauline today back in sch... suddenly i just miss 203 so so so so much.... true that we're not extremly enthu abt everything, but we love each other just as much, isn't this tt matters?

hamsters are gone, miss lim has gone, pauline has gone ( to nj) , our class room is gone (soon),203 boys wearing shorts are gone, the childish coconutz are gone. sec 2 books are gone. cheering comp are gone. gatherings are gone. one word---gone.that's how i'm feeling now, GONE.

i rmb even when i moved to 4th level (3t1), i'll always steal a glance at 203 classrm(now 3p3), memories will just float back involuntarily, if i hadn't known you guys will i ever be so happy? will i be able to break away frm my shell? will i be able to look at things frm a diff. perspective?i miss 203, miss lim, spice and eveything nice...

2006-08-09T17:58:00.000-07:00

yay !!!! we won cheering comp!!!i love my class!!!
i love national day!!! my heart swell with pride everytime i memtion that i'm a singaporean. this is where i belong,this i my future, this are my friends, we are singapore singaporean!
i love my father also, i want to marry someone like him, rich , handsome (10yrs ago) and hardworking... he works 15 hours on average everyday...

2006-07-30T00:39:00.000-07:00

are boys usually tt stingy?probably no, but i've defitnitely seen one...
boy A : hey iris, i'll help you return your bk kaes?
me: no thank you, i scared you lost the bk
boy A:if i lost the book i'll return the book
iris: even so, i'll still haf to pay for the admin stuff
boy A: nvm, i help you return
iris: nah, aniwaes today library not going to open , got 'o' levels chinese oral, im going so i'll return it myself
boy A: so u dun trust mi izzit ??
----------------------steam----------------------
and then he's angry, y?? for god sake ..
cum'on !!!! he's angry coz i din want him to return the bk ...HAHAHAHA...i ask some ppl abt it, ask them abt wat they think, but they say there's nth wrong with me..aniwae, wat's wrong even i've said so?? my holiday hmk are still wif you, dude!! he didn't even tell mi there's additional hmk , kept quiet till i call him in the last wk of holidays, so how could i ever trust you ??i find this really amusing...hahahahahaha...till the sky collasped, till pigs fly..wateva...

i'm sorry xy, din mean to do tt, out of anger onli...

2006-07-15T21:57:00.000-07:00

i dread it. really. it's bee too much. i've given too much to others. better to give then receive. sheesh.not working for mi. i feel terribly sorry for myself, sorry for allowing others to replace mi. i'm gonna change for the better.trust mi. i'm not gonna let others get their way so easily.

mentally unstable.

ambition: be a rich tai tai then donate all my money away...MRS ROBINHOOD

confused.confused.why are there ppl who know so well where is the direction they wanna go?

lose control. wake up girl, you've got to face the reality.

2006-07-15T21:55:00.000-07:00

gotta buck up

gotta pull up my socks

not gonna lose any chance

carpe diem

i'm gonna prove it.

i'm gonna show the world.

2006-07-09T03:19:00.000-07:00

a big thank you for those who came for my b'dae party, i had really great time and hope that you oso enjoy yourself...

bag frm cj xy janice
towel frm mor mor and gp
a pair of earrings and necklace frm aisha
a pair of earrings frm grace
toy pig and a necklace frm raymond
toy coz and a crystal swan frm kl,amanda,halimah,fanghui,ziwei,roxane,huizhen
toy bear??? nigel,yishun,anliang
chocolate and cookies frm yikai
winnie the pooh cup frm gy
expenses of the party frm my mom !!!

should be all... if your name isn't here make sure you tag and correct mi !!!

my first b'dae party with my frenz...

today i went to buy a camera , realli cool, then my dad got a new hp, ask mi sis and i whether who would like the phone...altho i like the hp veri much i decided to give it to my sis..i feel realli bad inside, i want the thing so badly yet i chose to pass it to my sister, now i realise in a relationship, it must have been realli saddening and horrible if one were to allow another person to replace him or herself and to see the one person you love so much slip away frm your grasp...but nonetheless, i feel rather happy & fortunate being borned into the kam family.. it isn't easy, seriously, i am the one who is really willing to give and shower my family member with lots of love and gifts, but they dun seem to know it..they think it's what i chose to do and that they din force mi to buy anithing.... i wouldn't say that they are selfish, but more of a self-centered mindset...but nevertheless, i love all of them ... i would give in anithing jus to make them happy...

recently, my aunt ask mi, "why are your results much better in the family ??it's certainly not the genes" , well, im really flattered but i think it is bcoz no one want to listen to mi reciting 2 timestable when im young, or even appreciate my performance, they think im boasting or trying to show off, tt's y i tell myself to work doubly hard...however hard, my handwriting just dun seem to change, still as ugly as ever...lol...but i know, deep down, i know all i wish is too make my parents happy, i may not be the best, but i aim for it..

all i wish is that pple see my effort, even if it is as simple as brightening one's day ...do you ???

2006-05-27T06:45:00.000-07:00

here, i want to let everyone in 203 know tt i've put in loads of effort in planning the chalet and if you can't be bothered to turn it's FINE..ya'll nv know how i feel...i've to call everyone on the relay system, plan, calculate and finally bear wif all your excuses and unreasonable request
in fact 2 of them told mi to "call their parents" and talk over wif them, cum'on im onli 15 and my responsibility is not to bargain wif your parents,it's yours...
i swear tis would be the last gathering im organising frm 2 june onwards, it's all up to you coconutz, i donwan to spend any efforts liao, i donwant to gather the same grp of ppl and brood over wad to do at chalet , they are in fact hanif,lendl, caijun, and nigel...do ya'll know tt during the march holidays , we even took the trouble to go to town area to plan the amazing race ???would you ever do tt ??
thanks to those who made effort to turn up even though you've got sumthing on... i realli appreciate tt ...for those who do not turn up, it would be your lost not MINE!this post is to vent my anger, why no one can see my effort and sweat?

2006-05-21T00:37:00.000-07:00

right ...so exams are over , gotten back my results back, not tt fantastic but not tt bad either...well, in 203, results doesn't affect one mood, but in 3t1 everyone's so tense up, even i am getting veri kiasu..

i love 203 coconutz!!!

i love 3t1 one nano!!!

yea, i have to admitt, i've loads of fun in both classes, yet i miss the "care-free" days, after browsing xy's and hanif's blog, i realised how much i really missed 203,it triggered mani of my hidden 203 memories, those which i chose to hid at the back of my mind. well, coconutz who are reading this post, do you still rmb the times tiger tan came into our class and gave us a piece of mind, do you all still rmb how mani cards we gave to miss lim regardless negative or positive ones? do you still rmb how hard we've tried for cheering comp, how much effort we've put into, although deep down i know some hated mi so much tt they feel like chopping my heads of bcoz i forced them to learn the actions.for those who followed mi to causeway to vuy the things and think of actions, thank you so much, i can say tt tt is one of my most enriching days . this is almost the 6th month we've separated, i've seen loads of changes in everyone, including mi of coz...some changes made mi shuddered while others made mi grin frm ear to ear, and thanks to hanif for teasing mi bcoz i nearly landed mi head into a watermelon at the chalet. when i got to know a news so traumatising, i cried thruout the weeks yet, i slowly came to terms with it, i've promised to make the chalet fun but i did not, so i hope this yr i wld fulfill everyone's need...but forgive mi if i've failed to do so... this 2 yrs may not be veri smooth sailing but i wld defitnitely give all it takes to return back to those moments , wouldn't you ??some of you told mi " now i know how much efforts and how hard it takes to organise cheering comp. and all other stuff " yea..it's hard but it's veri worth it ...now i see norrisman, lendl,raymond,moritza,derek,emily and mani more taking roles like cheerleaders and those enthu ones, it's rlly heartwarming,at least we've once again shown miss lim tt we can do it ....go 203 coconutz, we'll fulfill all our dreams

2006-04-26T01:30:00.000-07:00

You Are 52% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howopenmindedareyouquiz/">How Open Minded Are You?

You Should Honeymoon in the USA!

You and your sweetie want a fun filled honeymoonWithout the hassle of food poisoning or learning a new languageThe USA is perfect for you (even if you already live here)You can kick it at a spa, go to an amusment park, or explore a new city
Suggested destinations: Disneyworld, Vegas, NYC, Napa Valley, Palm Springs

Your Funky Boots Are

%20src="Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom
What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart

What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

You Are 56% Happy

You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments.You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.

How Happy Are You?

You Are 16% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.
You are at low risk for having a borderline personality. It is unlikely that you are a chaotic mess.
You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.
You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.
You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

2006-04-26T00:38:00.000-07:00

2006-04-26T00:15:00.000-07:00

Your Inner Pop Princess Is Hilary Duff

"I'm sheddingShedding every colorTrying to find a pigment of truthBeneath my skin"
You're sweet and cute, but a little more complex than that.

Who's" Your Inner Pop Princess?

2006-03-31T04:00:00.000-08:00

back to post ...alot of things happen it this 1++ mths...not going to elaborate ..
tmr's april fool's day !!!!! yay !!! aka jia ying b'dae!!!! happy bird-dae to you !!!
tmr's going to raymond's house with some 2o3 pple...really look forward to it....today played articulate ... din know anithing bleahs... blurted out the word i should not say.WOW. nth much today...totally stunned and lost when mr sim wanted us to play if we hold on together...coz i din practised AT ALL...i also realised sth todae ...mr loh can BE FIERCE...he's really nice..but today we seemed to push him too much ...morale ? toleration has limits... i'm writing another story...perhaps i will post it out here if i've got too much time to spare..haha ....
till them tata !!!

2006-02-20T04:34:00.000-08:00

right, i've decided to delete my last post coz i think everyone knows who im toking abt liao...but i hope tt u all will understand mi...i din write it for nothing

2006-02-10T23:22:00.000-08:00

THIS IS A TRAGIC LOVE STORY, DUN'T READ IT IF U DON'T WANNA TEAR..
zac and zoe are sitting in the park doing nothing, but just gazing into the sky, while all their friends are having fun with their beloved half.
zoe: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend now to spend time with.

zac: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're the only people without a date (both sigh n silence for a while)

zoe: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a game

zac: huh? What game?

zoe: Erm..It's quite simple. You be my boyfriend for 100 days and I'll be your girlfriend for 100 days. what do you think?

zac: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for the next few months.

zoe: You sound like you aren't looking forward to it at all. Cheer up. Today will be our first day and our first date. Where should we go?

zac: What about a movie? I heard that high school musical is great

zoe: Seems like I don't have any better idea than this. Lets move.

Day 2:zac and zoe went to a concert together, and zac bought zoe a keychain with a star.

Day 3:They went shopping together for a friend's birthday present. Share an ice-cream together and hugged each other for the first time.

Day 7:
zac drove zoe up onto a mountain and they watch the sunset together. When the night came and zoe mumbled something.

Day 25:Spend time at a themepark and got onto rollercoasters, and ate hotdogs and cotton candy. zac and zoe got in the haunted house and zoe grabbed someone's hand instead of zac's hand by accident. They laughed togetherfor a while.

Day 67:They drove pass a circus and decided to get in to watch the show. The midget asked zoe to play a part as his assistant in the magic show. Went around to see other entertainments around after the show. Came to a fortune teller and she just said "Treasure every moment from now on" and a tear rolled down the fortune teller's cheek.

Day 84:zoe suggested that they go to the beach. The beach wasn't so crowded that day. They have their first kiss with each other just as the sun is setting.

Day 99:They decided to have a simple day and is deciding to have a walk around the city. They sits down onto a bench.

1:23 pm
zoe: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first.
zac: Wait here while I go buy some drinks. What would you like?
zoe: Erm...Mango juice will be good

1:43 pm
zoe waiting for about 20 minutes and zac havent return. Then someone walked up to her.
Zoe: Yes, and may I help you?
Stranger: Just now down there on the street a drunk driver has crashed into a guy. I think its your friend.zoe ran over to the spot with the stranger and saw zac lying on the floor with blood over his face and her mango juice still in his hands. The ambulance came and she went to the hospital with zac. zoe sat outside the emergency room for five and a half hours. The doctor came out, and he sigh.

11:51 pm
Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could. He is still breathing now but God would take him away from us very soon. We found this letter inside his pocket.
The doctor hands over the letter to zoe and she goes into the room to see zac. He look weak but peaceful. zoe read the letter and then she burst into tears. Here is what the letter said.
zoe, our 100 days is almost over. I had fun with you during all these days. Although you may be greedy sometimes and less thoughtful, but these all brought happiness into my life. I have realize that you are a really cute girl and blamed myself for never taken the time to knowing that. I have nothing much to ask for, but I just wish that we can extend the day. I want to be your boyfriend forever and wish that you can be beside me all the time. ZOE, I love you.

11:58
zoe: (sobbing) Zac. Did you know what was the wish I made on the night there was a meteor. I asked God to let us last forever. We were suppose to last 100 days so zac! You can't leave me! I LOVE YOU, but can you come back now? I love you zac. I LOVE YOU.
As the clock struck twelve, zac's heart stopped beating. It was 100 days.He died.zoe's heart is now empty. No more fairytale. A wish upon a star juz don't come true.But i'll do wateva it takes to be wif you...

2006-02-10T23:09:00.000-08:00

heys...yea.. it's been a long time since i've blog, too mani things are happening arnd, can't keep up the pace animore...then there was CNY, it was great, got to see my cousin frm HK..den last sat, had a party at home, tt was realli a GD DAY mans, we practically lock ourselves in a rm, switch off the lights and dance like we're in disco, i mean EVEN the BOYS did tt.. it was sooooo damn cool....they can realli dance...den was back to sch ...lots of testpaper to be returned to us ...chemistry was fine, physics was likr 25.5/40, but im veri contended liao , Amaths was a total mess.... 11.5/35, WTH...nvms , then there's BEAUTY AND THE BEAST audition going on...i wanted to get a cellolist part, then i realise tt if i go , den i won't be able to go for CO, coz they are also performing... so i gave up mi idea lor ...ytd , i went to watch the release of 'o' levels result, it was great but we WERE CHASE OFF to go to CO, so kaiwei, xinyi, joan and sum others decided not to go for CO, coz there's always CO twice every week, but there will onli be release 'o' level once a year...den saw mani seniors going up stage, oh gosh, they were great , i was thinking wad will happen in our yr... will i ever be upstage,or juz sitting there waiting for my poor results...i want to go to hwa chong institution or... ACJC...dunno lars , there still a long way ...muz jia you liao ....

2006-01-27T21:20:00.000-08:00

so it's been a week since i updated HAHA..
yesterday was CNY celebrations in sch, it sux, coz i did not haf a chance to watch the whole performance, CO was ok, i made alot of mistakes..LOL..
then was miss lim b'dae!!, went to get the cake, den play for a while then miss lim came, actualli she knew what we were up to alreadi liao -.-".. but still made a surprise... then we sang b'dae song for miss lim, mor mor, raymond , derek ..oops , we realised we forgot abt halimah, and she forgot abt herself oso, so we sang everyone's b'dae song again, halimah was totally touched, SHE CRIED, tt's the 2nd time in the 3rd yr we met each other did i see her cry..we are best frenz, i like going out with her, coz she's veri truthful to herself and veri daring, veri positive person. i feel tt im veri destined to befriend with malay frenz, maybe bcoz i believe in equality,i believe in every beliefs of every races..LOL

back to the story, we gathered arnd in a circle , we had to describe someone in our class then everyone guess, i was veri HIGH at tt moment. gave miss lim her present, she LOVED it, i think...
i got home at 6 , bathe liao , slept to 9 then mom call mi wake up to go to the restaurant to eat..WTH, ate indian meal, it was so damn delicious...then i was veri tired again, coz the day b4 i slept at 11 ,then woke up at 4.30 to finish my hmk, it was also partly bcoz i was veri stress handling miss lim b'dae things...
slept for 12 hours..11pm to 11am.. owells, weekend is onli the day i can enjoy my sleep..
later going to grandma house to eat reunion dinner and tml's CNY, looking forward to collecting red packets...

happy chinese new yr to everyone arnd mi and happi b'dae to all my frens whose born in january!!!

bless eveyone on earth, hope tt this yr would be both enriching and enjoyable..WORLD PEACE!!!

2006-01-20T04:22:00.000-08:00

hi , im back!! found tt sch's not tt bad animore, but not tt gd either, enjoying lessons better now , well, MALE tchers haf a gd sense of humor ...HAHAX, ytd went to watch I NOT STUPID too(2), veri nice show, din regret it at all, although i pay it thru edusave... ahaha, veri touching but at the same time,funny..there's a part where this small primary sch boi thought he made a girl pregnant by sleeping BESIDE her... and dne force her to take pineapple to get rid of the child... wahahas, of coz the touching parts i DID cry, but not veri emotionally, i heard ppl go sniff sniff in frnt of mi ...MUAHAHA...but b4 all these happend, joshua came to BP, it was like erm... i dunno lehz,but he was wearing a pair of specs with the black frames( u know those which are veri fashionable...), but it made his face look darker than ever...his hair was dyed white, i mean the front part, so so lors, actualli din realli haf much chance to see him coz i was sitting right at the corner of the hall.... so tt's all, realised im participating in chinese new yr performance , I THINK SO, but i rather i dun!!! so dat's all for today, got loads of hmk to finish ...

2006-01-16T03:19:00.000-08:00

owells, today was my super duper suay day...got scolded by dm in the canteen during recess...i mean like bcoz i tucked out...he scold mi i dun mind, but i dun like him saying that he will make the whole class pay for it, and he's stricter bcoz im a triple sci student. i dun like the idea of it lor bcoz i believe it's my fault i dun like the idea of diverting the punishment to others who are innocent. and den it wasn't DELIBRATE...then mrs ee cut in to say that i did tt "EVERYDAY", cum'on .. it makes sense that if i do it everyday, u should alreadi come and give mi a piece to mind lor ....well i dunno...mixed feelings right ?? den raymond came to tell mi not to be sad.. hmm, ray mond IM NOT SAD ABOUT IT !!!, im juz confused and angry...

i haf this bad habit of crying bcoz sum1 accuse mi of doing sth i din... but i told myself tt i won't coz i haf to change my habit...nvm...

after that i slacked in class after sch .. raymond came to look for mi , i think he tot i veri sad so come and cheer mi up , shun bian copy work for his lit hmk.... how clever can he get to ???aniwae he gave mi this key chain that looks like a pig that can shit .. owells... tuvm(A maths tcher tot mi :thank you veri much)..den i took a roll of majong paper and hit his bag with all my might ...release stress mah ... feel veri relaxed after tt ... MAD GURL... den went down to 3p2 to look for 203 pple.. hmm, seems like they haf detention ... then crap with lendl and raymond, den go to wellness, came back to find the 203 pple haven't go home... so walk to LOT 1 with them lor .. teasing nigel & emily thruout... and hanif was so damn cooperative... agreed with wateva i SAID...
tt's all for today ... im going to do hmk !!!:(

2006-01-13T21:10:00.000-08:00

well well, back frm a not so bad week !!!..i learnt to accept my class liao, but dun worry 203s , i will still continue missing you !!!realise each day was a specific studying day , wad do i mean , monday --> sciences & pe thursday--> all humans and ss friday--> language day ... wow..realli tiring, mr sun is out today!!!aniway lots & lots of hmk today, but met up wif 03 coconutz the last few days so i dun dread sch that much....had tuition yesterday, with gy, hanif, banana...den banana was kinda scared of my tchers dogs , owell..., den mi tcher ordered the dogs to go juz by say "sha sha, go back to your room" and thedog obeyed!! how cool is tt ?? banana was pretty impressed, he was like " wow!!! they listen to human language!!" den my tcher say " next time i talk to them in tamil.." -.-" how lame can they get to ???

till den bye bye !!! i love rainy days !!

2006-01-06T18:03:00.000-08:00

yoz....im feeling kinda depressed, i can't concentrate on anithing, and my world seemed like crashing down hard on mi ..i've changed, but im not my old self animore, i get scolded for everything i do, by tchers and seniors.can't they open their eyes and tell that im sad, and i cannot adapt to the new environment???!!!went to co yesterday, feeling veri depressed liao cannot concentrate at all, den pulled a long face, i moved out, nv practice coz i dun want to end up scolding my fren, den went to eat saw hanif and sufyan, tok to them... but im still depressed, den saw pauline, went to look for miss lim in the staff rm. i skip 1 1/2 hr of co... coz i dun wanna go da zhu, if not i will cry there, but after toking to miss lim, i felt so happy..den saw 03 bois, den went up to co, they ask mi why i went missing for that period, so i told them i went to look for tchers. played a song then pack up time.then they say tt if u cum but nv practice, attendance will be zero..at first im a bit guilty, but i found myself to be quite happi after toking to miss lim, so i dun mind liao ...sunday going to esplanade to watch concert... gd for mi ....if i sink into great depression i may juz jump down into the sea .. MUAHAHA...

2006-01-05T01:32:00.000-08:00

hi everyone,
i miss 203 so badly...
but im moving on ....
i dunnno wad's the feeling , it's so weird but being in 3t1 makes mi feel veri uncomfortable, first, it seems like all my tchers are male accept mrs angeline wong, it's different coz last yr most of my tchers are females and i can relate to them better. i haf no one sitting beside mi and i feel 100% lonely, when i listening to my a maths tcher teaching, my tears start flowing down coz i miss mrs chiu lesson and her sarcarsism, some more im sitting in frnt....and i learnt a big secret, im sure onli 2 pple knows abt it, tok to them juz now and thinking of it now, im feeling so down ... everything tough frm this moment and im gonna be strong ...when lessons end, i got this habit to say have a gd day... but now it's different, im writing class:203 all the time and date :05.01.2005... missing all coconutz !!!

2006-01-01T20:45:00.000-08:00

hi, im back, i dun wanna move on!!! i wanna stay in 203 coconutz, im missing all of them, everyone, everything...but life goes on, i've to change myself for the better...i hope the yrs ahead would be as good as the times i shared in 203 ...thanx for everything, dearest coconutz....:(:(:(:(

2005-12-30T18:09:00.000-08:00

hi ...went to chalet on the 28/29..the games tt we plan was a total failure except for dodgeball...
so i met caijun, lendl, nigel, anliang, xiuming,hanif on jurong platform, den went to whitesand to buy the bbq food.den at 12.30, we went to check in, met yi kai there trying to bluff our way in but the person say nid to gif IC ...dotz-.-" den out of a sudden, saw syahir, i think tt's how's his name like...HAHA...den "beg" him to get his brother to help us check in, den tt was it , we got in !!!MUAHAHA...denwe went to play dodgeball, then suddenly nobody wanna play the nex game, wah i feel so damn sad...but nvm, we went back for bbq,syahir din haf $$ to pay for bbq pit so we pay for it den lend it to him lor, actualli he and his fren, jonathan cooked the food for us to eat, but there were so much food left, but we din care, den we got gift exchange, i got a cute little cup from lendl, tHANKS LENDL!!!den we went for night walk, it was fUN FUN FUN!!i held onto to halimah for the whole journey haha....syahir came oso, den we sat by the sea at 12.30 pm, wah, we looked like we realli gonna commit suicide...HAHAS.. den i started singing becoz of you to halimah, den she say"hmm, actualli ur voice not tt bad mahz", hey?! of coz,duh !!!den syhir started singing his songs, but none of them i hear b4 except an jing, so i juz pretended to enjoy...den we went to playground, then big spinning plate was fun but i din play much, play by myself, coz everybody was playing that particular thingy, den i went to play the i dunno wats dat called, that is a whole series of obstacle made by ropes den at last, you'll get to slide down from and long and small slide, den went to spiderweb, but there were other pple and they were playing catching on that spiderweb, so we came down lorz, den went to swing, i challenged syahir see who swing higher, and i won!!!den walked back to chalet, wah, my legs breaking like siao...walked back wif hanif, halimah & zac.. when i got back, went to grab mi clothes to bath, it's a long queue, wah bath liao so shiok!!!den sufyan help us to start the fire again den we bbq again,some were sleeping, others went to macdonald to study or get some supper, why waste $$ when we got leftover food ???so i and hanif, gy, halimah, xinyi, ruiyan??,sufyan, sorri if i missed out ani, went to bbq, den brought out the mattress laid it on the floor outside the chalet, den lye down to see the stars, den we cut a watermelon, with a scissors, and continue eating, den started rolling around de matress, den i took gy advice and nearly hit the wall, thank u gy...den went to watch sunrise at 6.15, the sun cheated, the sky lit up but not sun at all.. den went back to chalet to sleep and i kept hearing nigel's voice for the whole 1/2 hour tt im sleeping, den we clean the place and went to pack up, i brought home 80% of the leftover things, but nvm lor, went to bowl afterwards very tired, but still play... den realised dat everything jus seemed to vanished into thin air, the times and moment we had, it could nv come back, we've juz left it behind juz like leaving our memories back at the chalet, this chalet was the last time we gather around like a real class gathering in 2005,3 days later, i'll be a 3t1 pupil, but i will nv forget myself being a 203 coconutz, the times we had when we cried bcoz the tchers insulted us, the times when we cheered like mad bcoz we got into a cheering comp. finals...i hope the futher 203 will carry the spirit that we always haf ..

2005-12-23T04:05:00.000-08:00

4 more hrs to christmas eve & my daddy's bdae!!
happy birthday DADDY!!!
i LUV u DADDY!!!
went to order cake and den bought him his present!!! an Osim uZap...ZAP ZAP, and his apple stomach will be gone forever !!!MUAHAHA, actualli i bought it for him + myself , share mahz..
so a few more pages and i'll finish my e maths studies, currently left with 1 newspaper cutting and a summary, hmmz, try to finish tmr, den can celebrate mi daddy bdae...every year, i'll look veri forward to this very day, 24th december, bcoz i want to celebrate my daddy's bdae wif him, he's very hardworking and works till late hours, sumtimes, i wish i would quickly grow up den he can rest liao, like say, when im 18, i go his company work den his workload will be lesser, den age 24, he can retire liao , retire at the age of 51, not bad sia,den mi sis will be 32 liao, at least im not tt old ...hahax...den let my father go tour around the world, so tt's mi goal!!!im gonna make it real...and im gonna make him fish bcoz i heard from mi uncle tt mi daddy is veri good at fishing ... so juz saw him juz now, he wasn't in a veri gd temper , so i din dare to tok to him...so the last time i merely tok to him was 3 days ago.. hahax, nvm, gonna share more moments wif him tmr... till den, bye bye !!!

2005-12-20T00:50:00.000-08:00

hi !!!
i've been walking for days , YA!! DAYS!! ,
sunday: went shopping at bp plaza
monday : buffet , shopping at IMM and bp plaza
tuesday: bowling & shopping at bp plaza again !!!
wednesday: tuition starts !!!

wah, my bowling skills consider not bad bah .... veri gd indeed, but sumtimes, things juz dun go right, maybe is the ball too heavy, HAHA, and ya im blaming the BALL FOR BEING HEAVY...
well, today meet hanif, gy and weiliang at bp plaza,guess wad?! i tot the one who sms me is zac, so i tot he got go, den i realised it was weiliang ... WOW... weiliang was like "i told u im weiliang in the sms" but the sms written to mi is : i m wl.... dotz -.-" wad is wl ?? wah lau , wah liu ...

but we went first to bowl, haha gy was like : see who get a strike first and it's mi !!!!MUAHAHA...aniwae treated gy and hanif to a game of bowling coz their bdae is coming liao ... hanif so damn funny, he'll pose everytime he finish rolling the ball and weiliang is like practicaylly THROWING the ball, he's ball will always goes like tt --> flys off his hand and land will a POOM .. omg the lanes gonna break...den went to the pet shop, aww.. the animals r sooooo cute!!!den went to lot 1 by taxi, gy paid for it so mi and hanif juz sat lor ....LOL..went for window shopping again, wah my legs gonna break again.
later i got chinese tuition at 7.30 pm, how cool is tt ??mi tcher sort of scolded mi for not trying to get into higher mt.. i meant i sux in my mt..LOL
tml got a maths tuition at 8 am, ~faints~ 8 am ...so early, nvm,.. meeting hanif and gy at the bus stop to start our first lesson amaths haha .....
and den im printing everything tmr, i mean for the chalet thingy .. i think im gonna shop for the food at tuesday...

till den bye bye !!!

2005-12-14T20:05:00.000-08:00

hey, long time no see, yesterday went to lot 1 macdonalds to meet the class committee, so i WAS the FIRST to arrive, HAHA... sat there till 5 , discuss abt the chalet but im not going to reveal anithing here, muz keep it a secret , den on tt day itself den will be fun mah ...

today suppose to go for the 6A gathering, but i decided not to go liao coz jia hua not going, crystal NOT going, ROXANE GOH is in taiwan enjoying her holidays, and it seemed like ther's onli ME LEFT..sorri...but girls are like tt aren't they ??without ani accompany, i dun think i would like to go at all.....aniways, last yr when i went for e 6A christmas gathering, i was so SO SO extra, i was practically the onli BPian and the onli person wearing all white..i look so dummy, and den coz i went in the evening, i din get to know the other ppl frm different schs, it is so not 6A at all...coz the organisers say muz bring a few frens along mah, but i din ..LOL...i can't say i had my best sch yrs memories in 6A coz i felt so stress and i tried my best to blend in, with all my fren, but i den realise tt i WAS veri wrong, i couldn't, it was so hard, i knew i was being laugh behind my back but i act as if nothing happen, i din realli feel happy there...but i din wanna brood over my past, so when i got into my sec sch, where everyone seemed like strangers to mi, i promised to rebuild my confidence in myself...

in 103 coconutz, i did rebuild my confidence, i b-came veri daring and wanted veri much to develop my leadership skills. 103 was one of the class tt e tchers looked down on us , but we still haf to stay united right?? and the best thing is tt i overcome my fear of touching a hamster, i learn how to be responsible and to take care properly of a pet hamster...

in 203 coconutz, i had my best sch yrs, we went thru a lot together, we learn frm mistakes and not tok behind ppl's back but in frnt of them...LOL...i was told to take a leadership course wif hanif and lendl, and it realli helped mi thru out e whole yr...and our class hamster gave birth to mani babies, we went to cheering competition, i learn how to gather the class and to gif instuctions juz like a leader, i had to lead in mani cases, sumtimes i ask myself , y bother???, but i realised y i did tt in the first place, i wanted to put in my efforts to exchange for a more united class...we got into the finals foe the cheering comp. it was an etra bonus to my efforts, wad i thought is juz to give our best and haf fun, although i wasn't very open to those bonus marks game (coz i cannot run veri fast) and i din wanna dance and act like william hung...so i din, luckily, sufyan, my ass. did a great job, he helped mi to teach the class the moves and explained clearly to the fellow coconutz when i felt tired and sicked and thanx to hanif(class chairman), mor mor (vice chairman) and lendl (vice chariman) and 4 more person tt i wanna thank is ruiyan, xinyi and emily & kaylee, they're realli creative, thans to xinyi for thinking tt crushing a piece of paper could actualli be part of our moves and of coz to zac and jiaying for the 203 gao shan qing...and those i mentioned in frnt, thanx for helping mi in the cheering comp.!!! woah...we break our brains ,no more creative juices liao , juz to think of the cheering comp. , realli happi to get 1st runner up, i know i looked realli stupid to run up the stage like a mad woman, but i juz couldn't resist...LOL... so looking back, i realli grew frm being a laughing sock to a member of the class committee...

thanx !!! haha, as if im getting an award...

2005-12-05T20:45:00.000-08:00

hey there, today is tuesday, LOL

i've decided tt im not going to continue my story, i think it is kinda crappy, but hope tt u guyz enjoyed the 1st part of my story

2005-11-29T20:40:00.000-08:00

hi everyone, b4 the last story, there's the beggining so juz scroll down some more and u can read the beggining of my story... ENJOY!!!

2005-11-28T22:31:00.000-08:00

okay, so im gonna continue my story, pls forgive mi if my english is realli bad.....

Lara found out that nicholas was stuck in a big and deep hole
"hold on, i'll go and get help, u stay and wait for me ok?" lara told him
but the sky was getting darker and nicholas is very scared of being in a dark place alone
"pull me up!! don't leave mi alone!!! pls Lara !!!"nicholas voice was trembling...
"ok, i'll try, but i'll try to get others if it is unsucessful ok ??"lara held her hand out but nicholas weight juz to much for her to bear, "nicholas i think the best solution is to get others, wait for mi ok ??"
"no !! pls dun leave !!" he tried to move up, but instead of getting out of th hole, Lara fell in,“You selfish pig! Now we’re both stuck down here!”
"damn !! y has it got to be me ??it's so dark !!!" nicholas cried out
"you're afraid of the dark??"
"yeah!!tt's y it pissed mi off when u wanna go look for help !!!"
he began crying and hugged Lara, there, she felt like it's back to the first time they met, the young, innoccent and vulnerable nicholas. "sorry for blaming you, u know..? my hair... are you ok ?" lara said
"it's ok & i dun mean to do tt too...." it was full moon tt night, " nicholas, u rmb the time u told mi to get into the lake to get the moon reflection?? omg, i can't believe tt i actualli believe all your dumb lies!!!"
"yar, haha, u actualli went down and started asking " nicholas how come the ball floats away everytime i move near it ???" haha , tt was hilarious, but when u started struggling, i was veri worried, u know...i was scared tt i would not haf anione to pick on" nicholas said, but Lara knew tt he didn't meant it so. they started to talk abt the past and b4 they knew, they slept on one another's shoulders.

the next morning, one of the house servant came and pulled them out.frm den on, they were the closest bud, they shared their secrets and everything.
nicholas was studying in a boys sch and at the age of ten, he was invited to a so called cool party, he invited Lara to tag along, but when he was there, girls came forward to greet him because he is very famous, for the 1st time, Lara felt very jealous, she tried hide away and went home first.
when nicholas got home, he was very angry tt Lara left him alone in the party, thus he went to confront Lara
" why did u leave ?? do u know tt i was veri worried"
" y do haf to worry abt mi? im a big ger now, stop being my big brother!!"
" fine!! this is not ur home, i hope u leave this place as early as possible !!"nicholas said impulsively...and den he left the room
Lara was veri upset with wad nicholas said and she went to look for esther and told her to put put her up for adoption as she knew tt this place wasn't right for her, this wasn't where she belong...

the next morning, nicholas came to apologised, and lara accepted it, they were back again, as close as b4...

~1 yr passed~
they fought again,for a small trival matter, they din want to tok to each other but they had to eat their dinner together
~ at the dinning table~
esther "Lara, someone called and told mi tt, some one frm s'pore is willing to adopt you , and u will arrive 2 weeks later..." Lara was shocked by the sudden news, she did not want to leave, frm the corner of her eyes, she saw that nicholas wasn't reacting, and was very sad by his heck-care attitude....

she made an excuse to get back to her room and started to pack her things, while crying so badly.
the door slide open, and nicholas was standing there, "im sorry, can u not go to s'pore?" nicholas pleaded
"no, im not gonna miss my chance !!!y are you here??? im so happy right now, pls dun spoil my mood" Lara turned to avoid eye contact with nicholas." pls!! dun leave mi, i dunno wat to do without you!!!" nicholas tried again "1 yr ago, u told mi to leave ur happy family, now u want mi to stay, u'll not be lonely, u still haf ur brother!!! and... why do you haf to do things tt u'll regret??? somethings cannot change after it is decided!!!" Lara cried.

the next morning, Lara wore a scarf, t-shirt and shorts and went out to the garden. it is 12 degrees celsius right now, but she wanna try "adapting" to her new enviroment. nicholas came out with a jacket and wrap it arnd lara. "thanx, i dun think i'll get a chance to wear this again in s'pore, i found out tt it is up to 30 degrees celsius there...hahax"
"hmm...ok...this is for you , dun forget to write mi letters ok ???"nicholas said as he whips out a necklace with the word 4get mi not on it...
"ok, sure, but i dun think we'll meet again, coz u r the famous and tough guy in uk, im going to a faraway place...and lead a normal ger's life, but dun forget mi too ok ?" she said as she took off her scarf and gave it to nicholas
"nicholas, u rmb u promise to bring me to ice skiing ? hmm... i dun we'll haf a chance alreadi, but hopefully,i'll meet you there at the swiss alps...haha..."lara said, although she knew the chance was veri veri slim....they talk for the rest of the day and spent their time together for the short 2 weeks together...

story to be continued .... haha stay tuned !!! LOL...dun forget to tell mi whether nice anot

2005-11-28T01:51:00.000-08:00

gonna start my story today, a STORY written by ME ME ME!!!well actually not, juz a bit frm this story, a bit frm tt story...compile together and i got mine!!! MUAHAHA...

7 yrs old Lara , young and innocent, yet abandoned by her parents, or tt's what she thought, she had no recollection of how her parents look like, or how it feels to be loved. the only thing she rmb was tt her father told her tt her smile is veri bright and contagious, juz like a sunflower, and tt there's nth bad abt being an asian....

it's winter right now, yet she only have a jacket to keep her warm tonight, she had no place to go, she don't know where is she, she is confuse, yet she knew, she cannot go back to what it used to be like...Tears streamed down her cheeks, she had to spend the scary night alone on streets, she felt her world came crashing down.

fortunately, she was spotted by a rich and famous lady, Esther,she had 2 sons, aged 6 & 8, who were also very well-known because of their mother...

Esther brought lara to her home, it was huge, very beautiful and heart warming, Lara felt very accepted
she went arnd the enormous house to explore, and found it incredibly nice and big...

"let me out! open the door !!!" cried nicholas, he was locked into a cabinet by his friends whom he had invited to his home, he was afraid of the dark, and worst of all, afraid of being alone, he curled into a ball,tears running down his cheeks...

"is there someone in there??" lara cried out
"you stupid dumb pig!! open the door!!" Nicholas shouted
the wooden door slide open, nicholas fell, he ran out of air,When he looked up he saw a pair of big brown eyes staring back at him. It was a little girl in pig tails that saved him.embarrassed, he ran away without thanking lara."hey!! i opened the door for u and u don't even bother to thank me ??!! how ungrateful !!" lara screamed

~back at the living room~
esther "nicholas this is lara, she will be with us until er.. juz wif us, staying over at our home frm now on, where's arron ?"
nicholas " wat ??! i don't know where's aaron, think he juz went out to play with his frens"
esther" would u bring Lara to her room ? and show her arnd, ok ?"
nicholas " yea !!" and he beamed

~at lara's rm~
she felt someone pushing her, and she fell onto the hard floor, and banged her head onto the cabinet accidentally.She looked up and saw nicholas glaring at her with the coldest eyes she has ever seen.‘Don’t pretend you want to be my friend,’ thought nicholas
" what are you trying to say ?? "
" i hate gers, u r damn filty, stop crying, u cry baby"

mths passed, everytime when they are in frnt of parents or adults, nicholas will act as if they are the bestest friends, but when they are with their frens, he would do everything to mke her embarrassed, and tell his frens to tease lara, but will not hurt her physically. nicholas always demand lara to pick up the soccer ball for him, sometimes his fren will resort to hurting lara with the soccer ball, lara tries her best in avoiding but she juz so unlucky, nicholas is there everywhere she goes. there was once when they were by the lake, and nicholas told her tt the moon reflection is a ball , and want her to get it for him, but he did not know that she never knew how to swim. seeing that Lara is struggling in the waters, he junped into the waters immediately to save her. the other time, his frens blindfolded her and want to hurt her, by riding a horse and hitting her when she is unaware of it. luckily, nicholas managed to push her aside in the nick of time. this encounter made lara madder than ever she said" fine!u want mi to die?! i will, but i will bring u along !!!" she left with tears flowing down... at this point of time, nicholas felt a tinge of guiltiness...

half a yr passed, lara did not even want to tok to nicholas, even he tried every way he could to apologise, but to no avail. one day, lara brought 2 frens back home, one named jack and the other was jane, she wanted to take revenge and told jack to play against nicholas in soccer, she wanted to prove to nicholas that he was very wrong to think that she had no frens... how things went wrong, nicholas and jack clicked and became frens, this situation made lara flared up and she went running back to her room. nicholas came running behind her, at tt point of time, the faulty ceiling came crashing down , nicholas pushed lara aside but one of the fan blades cut off lara's long, silky black hair, she was so upset and was determined tt nicholas did this on purpose and did not realise that he was risking his life to save her...

1/2 yr passed swiftly, they were 8 & 9 yrs old respectively alreadi, nicholas was out and lara sneaked into the room to find out if he kept anithing supiciously as he was out often. there, she found a diary and realise tt nicholas was trying to save her and he even picked up the hair and ribbon and paste in his diary..
she decided to confront nicholas and was even prepared to apologised.. she went into the garden to look for him and realised he was stucked in a......

hahax, im writing till here, tell mi whether nice anot den i will consider writing more .....LOL

2005-11-18T05:49:00.000-08:00

tt's all for today,tata, realli had a nice day at sentosa!!!

2005-11-18T05:40:00.000-08:00

2005-11-17T19:32:00.000-08:00

happy balated birthday to Emily and another happy birthday to Nigel!!!
so, i haven't been blogging for like weeks, bcoz i din haf the mood to do so...
then , when i using the computer juz now, i haf the urge to change my blogskin, so HERE I M!!!

went to sentosa with 203 coconutz frens (me, kaylee, xiuming, caijun, xinyi, ruiyan, pauling, moritza, jia ying, dolly, emily, an liang, derek, nigel & lendl) on the 16 (wed), it was fun fun fun!!! had the best day of my life!!! i shall try to get the fotos and then post it here later...

we started out with luge ride,that seat that bring us uphill was fun, but the heat was just so unbearable, how i wish tt it's snow around instead of the scorching sun... den went to ride tt err... i dunno what izzit, but it was kinda fun, i went first but came in last...i din know how to control it man .... nvm, but i realised derek was worst den mi, he got his sandals broken, LOL

den we went to the beach, we went into a volleyball court to play, den sum1 came to tell us that we haf to pay for the court... we did not pay aniway...decided tt it is to tiring to play on sand... lol..den we got into the sea, we tried to sabo derek bcoz he scared his *toot* will be too obvious...
den we played in the waters, it was so cool, but everyone was still veri alert coz we're scared of stonefish...we saw the lifeguards fishing, so went over to catch a glimspe of the fish that he caught, den looking at our curious & innocent look, he explained every fish that he caught, and taught us how to avoid stonefish...

aftterwhich, the bois decided to bury anliang, they covered him with sand, and den we took fotos with this *er hem* mummified anliang.. den we went to change and ate our lunch at burger king.
most of the time, the bus drivers are realli polite and they will fetch us to our destination, we feel like a big family...hahax, most of the time, we occupy the whole bus..
den we went back to palawang beach to cycle , er.. dolly , jy,mor mor, lendl,kl,emily,xinyi were late, lucky the uncle din fine them...hahax..

it was late liao, so took the tram.. the tram is divided into 3 portions so we're all occupying the last portion, so when the tram arrived at the last destination, we're trying to ask the bus driver how to go to the departure centre and den he was like " huh? roti prata, mee goreng?" dotz-.-"...
we tried a few more times den finally pauline stood up and screamed " we want to go home !!!!!"
den the bus driver realised wat r we requesting " orh... go home!! bye bye izzit? take this bus blah blah blah " and so we got off, den we realised the angmohs were starign at us...hahax, den another tram pass by, i realised tt it is the same bus driver so we greeted him, hahax, it was damn fun, den we started toking abt the past,

the story happened like tt ...
ms ow " all of u should be able to see this link, click it"
sum1 " what it i can't find it ?????!!!"
ms ow " den GOD BLESS YOU!!"
omg... laugh untill mi stomach gonna burst....hahahax

yar, the good old times we had together, now it's time for mi to move on alreadi, realised i haven touch mi homework for this whole hol., so im gonna start it todae!!!

till den , tata , cious, zai jian, bye bye , ~wateva~

2005-11-08T21:46:00.000-08:00

hi ...so back to blog again...i haf like nth to say ...-.-"
im like totally not enjoying my hol., practically rotting at home.den i started to come up with a fairytale story, rather sweet and stupid ...i told my sis abt it, she said it was veri sweet, tt's what i tot too.maybe if im veri veri free, i will write it out and send it to mediacorp. i dun wanna elaborate here, later sumone snatch my idea, den i dun had $$ rolling in ...LOL
HAPPY BELATED B'DAE to SHERYL !!! lol...forgot to wish u happi b'dae , but here i m doing tt ...hope tt all ur dreams will come true and get gd results for psle !!!i really wish tt i haf a brother, then i cn dote him to death. LOL. wah i realli envy those hu haf younger brother ...

2005-11-06T04:13:00.000-08:00

this is the last thing i wanna do in my life, to go skiing or just to touch snow,to enjoy the beautiful scenery .blah blah blah ...be it the swiss alps or korea... but i do not regret being born in s'pore, i luv this country to death...

prince william and prince harry ...rich pple .wad can i sae ?? when i grow up, i wanna marry a rich rich rich man...i'm sure tt's every girls' dream . right ?!

Then i decided that i DO NOT want to marry a rich guy already, my goal is to be one of the most successful woman in the business industry. my ambition is to design and build a hotel and run it with my own efforts.however, i haf totally no control of my temper.so anione who try to aggravate mi, im not letting u off.yes, my temper will flare up, and i cannot tolerate stress.that's my weakest link.i had a lot of dreams when i was young, but mani seemed to fade away as time passes...i wanted to be a scientist, but after serious thinking that i may not earn a lot, maybe i will, but it will take ages...i decided it's not my dream.

next, i've thought of being a doctor, paedritian(did i spell this word correctly?heck care sia) in particular, but i haf totally no control of my own emotions, so i will blame myself for not being able to save a life or maybe i will burst into tears if i see children having to tolerate such pain ..so NAH NAH NAH...this is not my dream.

i've oso thought of being a psychologist, i want to help those around mi , but sumtimes, things may not seem to go right or according to what i want. so this particular dream, i may haf to postpone it till a more mature age.

SUCESS IS A PLANNED EVENT. so im not going to waste my time hanging around doing nothing. i'm going to work hard, i opt triple science as my first choice and i wish that i could get into that stream and do my veri best.

2005-11-05T06:29:00.001-08:00

right so i deleted my previous post ...-.-" ...i dunno wat the hell im doing man ...
actually i juz wanna say that i support albert in that ming xing ou xiang show ...he looks really like lin jun jie
LIN JUN JIE rox !!!he went to the awards ceremony with er hem ...so mani rings ...like wanna bash pple up ..shuai & cool...lol...actualli mi grandma singing his songs ...watch his mtv ...blah blah blah ...mi grandma veri in ...

2005-11-01T02:31:00.000-08:00

The times we had,?were always cool
Whether old, or whether new...
You took away all my fears
And took away, all my tears.
You left a trail of memories,
that had passed by, like a breeze.
Sometimes I wonder, why the rain?
Why the leaving, why the pain?
Why the happy, why the sad?
Why the good why the bad?
Now, I still don't realise why we part...
But still, you will always be in my heart!
You, my friend, will always be...
In my life, right in me!

claps claps....
this poem is written by may ling jie, my dear ex-primary-best friend
now i'm dedicating it to all coconutz... luv all of u ,i'm looking forward to e next calss gathering cum chalet...LOL

2005-10-28T19:56:00.000-07:00

yoz ...it's 36 hrs since we separated...it seemed like yrs...
i rmb how i felt when i got into classrm 103 for e 1st time to register, the 1st thought was like "omg, how could this be my future classrm??1 m away frm e windows is another cabin classrm, omg omg omg!!!" den when i got to sec 2, i got lost during the first day of sch, when i know tt my classrm will be on the 3rd floor, i was like "omg, 3rd storey ???i'm not gonna climb this forever". but right now, i wish i can climb it 4eva...

I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!I MISS 203 COCONUTZ!!!!

y can't we be together 4eva??? i dun wanna end this !!!! but i'll be there if u nid mi , all coconutz... we've cum a long way, IPW, hamsters, cheering comp. care & share stalls, US guy, results...all this made mi so proud of all coconutz, although all e teachers looked down on us, we've nv failed to prove them wrong. i rmb how stressful when the cheering comp. came, how jocelyn came to tell us how well we did ....

i want to thank these pple for making my life in 203 coconutz fun & enjoyable

kaylee
halimah
xiuming
caijun
zi wei (207) --> CO
roxane (207) --> CO, my fake cousin, whom every1 believed is my relative, cum on! she so different frm mi, or maybee totally opp. frm mi , but we juz clicked & became best frenz

cheers:

1 little, 2 little, 3 little coconutz, 4 little, 5 little , 6 little coconutz, 7 little, 8 little 9 little coconutz, TEN little coconutz !!!!! hmmm...... ALL OF E COCONUTZ!!!
S-O-L-I-D solid tt's wat we r !! B-A-G-U-S tt's wat we r!! solid solid, bagus bagus, solid bagus, bagus solid!! chikalakapee-ah, pee-ah,chikalakapee-ah, pee-ah, suah!!!
AWESOME, oh wow!! like totally freak mi out, i mean right on,03 03 no. 1!!!
203 we're so fun, we're so fun, we'll blow ur mind hey 03 !!! hey hey hey 03!!! lagiskali,203 we're so fun, we're so fun, we'll blow ur mind hey 03 !!! hey hey hey 03!!!
coconutz, coconutz, floating on e sea, singing o-ah-di-di-di-di-dam-di-di-do, falling frm e tree and rolling down the beach singaing o-ah-di-di-di-di-dam-di-di-do, we look smart , we stand tall, coconutz will win it all , ~ah~ah~ah
yox clap x 4 yox clap x 4 yox clap x 4 CHECK IT OUT !!!! yoz bp where's e heat?! show tt u can rock e beat!!!yea, bp , chua chu kang oi! bukit panjang oi!! all e way oi!! all we slay oi !! if we charge oi!! we will budge oi!! so we say oi !! all the way oi!!! ~yea~ BP!!!
2-0-3, co-co-nutz.....203 de gu niang mei ru shui ah, 203 de shao nian zhuang ru shan....cocococococococonutz...cocococococonutz.....203 de gu niang bu shi hen mei, 203 de shao nian ye bu zhuang, wei shen me hui zhe yang?? wei shen me hui zhe yang?? dan shi wo men she zhui bang, qing da jia bu yao jealous, shi zhui bang ....BANG!!!
rasa sayang hey rasa sayang sayang hey hey! cum'on on everybody let mi hear u say hurray !!!
we r e coconutz & we r here to say h-e-l-l-o to u in a mighty mighty way !!! with a h and a e and a l-l-o, 03 coconutz say hello!!!
we say the coconutz r really dynamite, 03 03 03 03 03 03 03, we say e coconutz r really gonna fight , nutty nutty nutty nutty nutty nutty nut, we say e coconutz r really gonna win , 03 nutty 03 nutty 03 coconutz!!....go go coconutz coconutz coconutz, go go coconutz coconutz coconutz, go go coconutz coconutz coconutz...
i like to move it move it, u like to move it move it, i want to move it move it, we want to MOVE IT!!! we're e team let's hear u shout, 03 coconutz, shoo u out....yea...
victory oh yea !!!split tt v and dot tt i and grab tt ctory!!! victory victory, tt's our pride!!!
zhou jing hall li hen moody, can jian coconutz jiu happi, jing tian shiang yao hen crazy , 03 coconutz, tian sia di yi!!!
we r e coconutz,03!! we'll always luv s'pore, oh yea !!
unity,resilence,teamwork,sucess...we'll always luv s'pore ...toot toot!!!
pump pump pump it up, pump tt 03 spirit up,
keep x3 it up..keep that 03 spirit up..
shout x3 it out..shout that 03 spirit up!!! scream scream scream it out, scream tt 03 spirit proud!!!
singapura, numbo satu, numbo satu numbo satu, bagus bagus, satu satu, singapura numbo satu !!!!eh wah !!

2005-10-27T21:10:00.000-07:00

yoz...got a new blog todae ...*grins*
so todae is the 2nd last dae of sch, but to us it's e last dae bcoz tml got bizzare & open house, which we could hardly get to see one another. yar, time passes so fast.can't believe that i've climbed to the 3rd storey for 10mths, can't bear to leave mi class, i luv all coconutz!!! but nth last 4eva right ? be positive, ok? right, so todae had my best p.e lessons. i'm so sorri halimah!! i din mean to scream at u, but my temper juz flared up. then we challenged to play volleyball. so, 18 gers against 6 bois..lol..it was so damn funni, den mr tan came, he biased lar, he changed the rules to

girls can hit without any boundaries --> tt's so cool !!! (bois can't)
bois win-dey take us as wifes --> yucks!! tt sux,not tt they sux, it's MR TAN TT SUX!!!
gers win - we can make e bois as our maids --> tt's so cool!!!

so we got into e court, e gers section was like overcrowding, bois is like 6 bois covering half of the basketball court.yea, we won!!! yikai started saying "it's weird if u dun win", duh,we rock!

den we play bb, duh, we won AGAIN, quite satisfied, coz dolly & i defended & we got back almost all e bb. DOLLY, U ROX!!OMG, den i snatch e ball frm raymond, he din wanna let go, neither do i, so we snatch, but i got it, lol coz i'm so much MUCH bigger den him..LOL.den every1 started saying tt i bully him.HEY! what's wrong wif e world mama??? i'm jux getting back wat shld be mine, nth wrong right ??? den saw emily playing, LOL, it's like once in e blue moon seeing her play, & she's so enthu!!!or rather all e gers r enthu...it was so damn fun, so we din wanna go to recess, tell mr tan to look after us, to avoid TIGER tan of coz.when we got back to class, we did 3 cheers for the bois for being gentlemen...lol..they r great, they dun mind letting us win, tt's so cool, thank you bois !!!

din wanna end e lessons!!! but nth last 4eva right?den we went back to class, got the instructions 4 hol. hw...wtd...den we wasted our time in class, our class dare not break e rules so din play cards, gers sang and bois played chess... boring right ??? but we truly enjoyed our time...although we may not tok, but we felt like we had the best conversation eva...lol...tt's what fren r 4 ....

ytd, we haf a netball game wif blue house, so in e first half , i din play, but pauline fell and hurt veri badly, take care ok ? i played the 2nd round, it was much better, but thanx to e netball gers, they din record e marks, so we argued, blue house sae we lost, but we got a draw, even nigel & lendl was up at 3rd storey looking at Us, so we waited and we cum to an agreement to play again, 1st half -->draw, den 2nd half --> lost....it's like the place was a little bit slanted so it was veri hard to shoot and den i din noe y, when i was aiming the pole was moving, then when i threw, it stopped, wtd, den i missed.but, we felt so So so SO happi abt it, it's like almost half of the group are malays, & i m SO SO SO proud of them, despite fasting, they were GOOD!!! so sumtimes i wonder if they r not fasting, they would be more energetic...

THANK YOU 203 coconutz, we've cum a long way, frm a scattered class to a united class dat every1 envies, they were like "wah, so united, even recess oso must cum out together" frm sec 1, we got nth frm cheering com. , but now we got 1st runner up !!! i really luv being HOF, i'm sorri to those whom i've hurt, i realli had no intentions of hurting u all, but if i haf, i'm so sorri!!! hope tt u all can forgif me...